Positivity at a premium

I find it incredibly difficult to write anything worth reading if I'm not either suicidally depressed or nauseatingly in love.
Note to self: check with psychologist whether above mentioned situations are somehow related...my guess is yes.
I've always dreamed of becoming a best selling novellist but if that was at the expense of either happiness or my sanity then I'm passing on it.
Writing makes me happy, but I'd much rather just be happy to start with.
And lets not even start on the topic of love...its too nauseating...
We all get lonely, but I think its way better to be lonely outside a relationship than in one...